This poem is a raw, visceral exploration of generational trauma, abuse, and the erosion of selfhood in the life of a woman who has endured pain in nearly every form—familial, romantic, societal. It speaks to the cyclical nature of violence and silence passed down through mothers, fathers, and cultural expectations, capturing the weight of caretaking, survival, and suppressed identity. The speaker recounts her experiences with molestation, misogyny, and toxic relationships, ultimately questioning whether her emptiness is a survival mechanism or a consequence of being broken beyond repair. It is a lament, a reckoning, and a desperate search for healing and meaning amid a life shaped by suffering.